pinksleevelesstops

2005-04-30T00:56:00.000+08:00

the most pathetic thing i've ever seen in my life. is my life. oh fuck.

2005-04-21T21:23:00.000+08:00

i would tag if i could but my browser is screwed up i cant even tag. lol. eh timothy! haha see my blog? damn cool rite. got gang fight one ar. hahaha tmr playign soccer whee hahahaah. ok thats all actualyl i dun have much to say. bye.

2005-04-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

haha replying to tags only!

to andy: hahahahahaha. lol. interpret it urself :p yes i m evil

to ruiwen: haha lol. ppl dun even know wat i m drawing so of course my drawing sucks

to huiwen: haha lol. thnx! hahaha. i need ur scanner!

to kevin: lol. dont take stuff so literal la. so long as my blog is sadistic and abt killing the person he likes and abt killign basically its ok! haha fuck the world

2005-04-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

My bloody valentine – Good charlotte

Oh, my love

Please don't cry

I'll wash my bloody hands and

We'll start a new life

I ripped out

His throat

And called you on the telephone

To take off

My disguise

Just in time to hear you cry

(When You) You mourn the death of your bloody valentine

The night he died

You mourn the death of your bloody valentine

One last time

Singing...

Oh, my love

Please don't cry

I'll wash my bloody hands and

We'll start a new life

I don't know much at all

I don't know wrong from right

All I know is that

I love you tonight

There was Police and

Flashing lights

The rain came down so hard that night and the

Headlines read

A lover died

No tell-tale heart was left to find

(When You) You mourn the death of your bloody valentine

The night he died

You mourn the death of your bloody valentine

One last time

Singin'...

Oh, my love

Please don't cry

I'll wash my bloody hands and

We'll start a new life

I don't know much at all

I don't know wrong from right

All I know is that

I love you tonight

Tonight

He dropped you off, I followed him home

Then I stood outside his bedroom window

Standing over him, he begged me not to do

What I knew I had to do cuz

I'm so in love with you

Oh, my love

Please don't cry

I'll wash my bloody hands and

We'll start a new life

I don't know much at all

I don't know wrong from right

All I know is that

I love you tonight

Tonight

2005-04-12T22:34:00.000+08:00

yes i know i have grotesque nicks

but i m only wat this world has made me out to be.

2005-04-12T17:50:00.000+08:00

yanzhi is the smartest person in the world

third lang

yanzhi said he needs water to wake up (or was it cos he felt warm?)

askss water from will

will said 'i help u pour'

he cleverly says no. asks to pour himself

he pours half a bottle of water over his whole back

leant against a pilar the whole recess to hide his translucent back

yanzhi the self jacker yay he rocks

yanzhi is damn pro.

oh and no point blocking the ppl's ip address cos all i'll block from my tagboard is the moelc IP address.

today sucks was sneezing all the way. dad wants me to sleep early shit la. haiz
nothign else liao lor ): go do work liao la. bye bye

2005-04-08T20:21:00.000+08:00

hi.

yay today is gay! started the day off wif bio, which was ok.. not much work, then math, which was an observation lesson so we all damn guai. then was um. chinese, where we had ting xie and i dint study. then was re, which was mainly cs/slacking. cos they guys were using the comp to try out poser. then i wanted to try and they dint let me s i go play cs lor. then bell ring i went off

then started soccer all the way till.. around 6. not the longest i've had, but my first goal was one of my better ones. traditional camper. its not exactly cmaping la.. i wasnt up there till someone pumped the ball high high infront of goal. then i rush in side-lobbed it over tedric. after that was gayness. i either just defended, or i slacked, or more gay goals due to everyone slacking.

ah wells. 8.26 now. having dinner. wat to do? all the fuckloada projects. )x

lets all die.

2005-04-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

hahahaha

the long awaited update.

i've been fuck bz wif shit work

nvm

anyways

ah so much has happened dunno wat to blog about

yes yes theres the belated april's fool prank (x

andy and evelyn u two ar..
tsk tsk. such a lame idea also can think up ahahahaha

but u got me lol..

haiz. then there is a fuck load of projects to do.

maths proj
mathsminiproj
mathsportfolio
poetry anthology
ERP
chinese bk review
flipbook
[insert shit i cannot remember]
[insert more shit]

yup thats abt it.

today was stupid la. we had a CLE lesson abt how we communicate and present ourselves

then there was body posture. we sent ZEMING to go talk abt the thing. wth. its a bit contradictory lor.

new class ball yay. its nice to kick. damn nice to kick. but gets dirty very very easily

whee
wat else ar.

oh YAH. now i have two umezawa's JITTE ahAHAHAHAHA

one i bought from nic yun one i got the last rat's nest in comics connection!!! ahahah

then i helping yinkwan buy 2 tmr, and maybe i buy my third LOL.

hehe.well now i looking out for rats. cos i got rats nest and i have rat shits in abundant ammount. gonna build a rats deck most prob

ah wells

yay i blogged. finally

2005-03-24T00:08:00.000+08:00

this isnt really an update. just takign the chance to type something haha.
hmms

i dont really believe in fate and destiny and all that. prediction is just by trendspotting.

however
sometimes i really really wonder if some one really planned my life for me. watever that happens in my life is like, so cliche and that doesnt mean good thigns happen

sometimes i wonder why my life seems so predestined lol. it was as if my life was fated to be fucked up. -.-

and this march hols, history repeated itself 3 times on me. wait. OMG
i just realised its not just 3 times! it went one cycle! omg. ok shall start with last last year.

cycle1 (2002-2003):
last last christmas happened
last february happened
last march hols happened
met someone march hols

cycle2 (2004):
last last christmas happens - this march hols
last february happens - this good friday
last last march hols - happened this march hols
met someone march hols [self explanatory]

so if i m not wrong. i can predict wat will happened next. trendspotting. u become good at that when u start noticing life gives u the same crap over and over again.

hmm how to put wat will happen next down in an analogy?
oh ok

wat will happen next is the love of clothes.
buy more and more clothes
and then yet more and more clothes
until no space for more clothes.
when there isnt enuf space for more clothes, discard old clothes
neglect old clothes
old clothes are gone.

hmm. i really really hope i m wrong. cos if i m right i feel good and i feel bad.

i will be a fortune teller
and i will be a loser in which life picks over and over again.

i'd ratehr not be a fortune teller.

oh and yea. to anyone [prob everyone] who dont understand this post dont worry. as i said a lot of times, someone told me a blog is for personal. i'm merely writing down some personal thoughts.

and before its over i wished it'd last longer. foreverr.

2005-03-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

haha today was a very lame day for me.

start of school was boring. then there was badminton for pe. still ok. english is gay as well. lotsa writing to do. then was comp. haha comp was ok la. we watched some of the director movies. daniel, as usual, topped the class wif 78 overall for computer.

then was recess. we played soccer and i was camping again. scored two lame goals la. one was a header. someone hit the ball against the stone steps and we all thot it was going out when it bounced on the curb and bounced back in. someone hit it to far post and i headered. the otehr one was a dman good pass from will. will was up front he got the ball he coulda rammed it in to the goal. but he passed to me. me, the camper, was standing slightly infront of the keeper only, but on left flank. i just directed the ball past the keeper into the goal behind him. evil and jian. lame me.

then was chinese, which we did summarizing. then the oral comm, in which choonhiang graciously bought 4 cheese buns from titus and brought it to class. he gave me two for free ( a grand total of 80 cents wow)and i had to eat it infront of the teacher. my first one was like. shove whole thign in. waah shit. too big. then i pretend to serach for a book in my bag and finally swallowed it. second one was i held the thing and ate under the table bite by bite. choon shoved his in as well, while yinkwan was very very smart. he asked to go toilet and ate there.. er. oh yah then choon got jacked by me [sorry...] i passed his badminton racket back to him and he received it by using his neck and shoulder to clamp it. pennefather saw him and asked him to go up and speak. lol. sorry choon haha.

lunch was good. the prawn noodles were great. french was ok. then we er. came home. wow. and then there was my stupid music class. which is stupid. ah wells. gonna slack around a bit mroe then going off liao. haha. tmr track and field meet.

i made a very ncie poem for shaun. it goes:

push!
nahh
ivan, dun tune hula hoop
dove poem rose
sexy sin
an end
pawn token is!

try stringing the second last letter of each word. its somethign from his heart.

eh besides if there is dire need of secret messages we can use this code as well. its not bad. not as obvious as the first lettter.

ok i go liao

ciao!

2005-03-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

ah shit.

i dunno why la.

i asked my dad if i could get the predator silver soccer shoes.

he said no.
wtf
i mean like. i've been trying to use little this month to get a reasonable amount for getting the shoes. its my freaking savings. outta respect i ask him if i could

no.

fuck.
why

haiz. nvm. its a sign from above that says i shud be getting more blisters in the near future due to my shoe being too tight. too bad for me wahaha.

fuck la.

hmm wats there to blog?

oh yea tmr is a damn fuck slack day yay!
pe. then english, then computer, then chinese then the pennefather guy for oral comm.

yay its slack.

haha. lol. anyways nothign more to tok abt liao la

so there. bye.

2005-03-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

lol. hi. haha. yea. i dont think i gonna have much more pessimism. its more of just realism now. get real real real. haha. back to the real world. of. school and work. bleh.

anyways, today was gay gay gay. i was totally off form for soccer. tho i scored one i missed thousands of chances. partially cos my soccer shoes were like, wet and full of mud [courtesy of getting the ball when it rolled down the slope thank you thank you], and my right toe was injured. cant even kick la. its gay. i dint feel anythign, but i look down and see blood coming out from my toenail. i was like wtf. and then the pain came. its funyn when u see the wound then u realise the pain. gay. the other part abt gayness is. pengseng and timothy. pengseng kept raping everyone la. wtf.

aaahhh. tmr guitar orientation. i wanna pon. but then, i must be responsible, plus its then that i wil lget my concert pieces. so. yah. fuck
oh yes and i dint mention why its so fucked up

its frm 9 am to 9 pm.

...

and i thot there wasnt much work, then japheth spoilsport [haha no offense] go send email to yahoo group tellign us al lthe homework and how much homework we have.
... ignorance is bliss mah. haiz. either ways that was good japheth. it really realyl saves everyone from like callign each other to double check the homework. thanks on behalf of all.

oh yea. this means i gtg. fuck.

and yes. one of this days i will change the poem 'telephone conversation' into the singaporean version one. i promise. like the famous line:

Madam, I warned, I hate a wasted journey. I am African

shall become:

eh ah soh ah! wa ga li gong [i tell u, in hokkien], i hate a wasted journey ah. i m singaporean

haha. lame me.

eh i feel shit. i blogged so long. fuck. ok.

bye then!

and it all faded from your memory

2005-03-02T20:22:00.000+08:00

btw for those who understood wat i wrote (i think thats only me), this doesnt mean i give up. this means i know for a fact it is hopeless so i m shelfing it for a while to concentrate on more real subjects, like school, work, life as a teenager in singapore, etc. doubt this means any meaning to anybody else but me, but nevermind..

2005-03-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

sorry to everyone who dint undertstand the prev post. i hope i dint lead u on a whole stretch then just leave u wif somethign senseless. i think a blog, as my fren had said b4, is a place for you to express yourself. i just expressed myself. and if u dont understand, and feel 'shortchanged', i m sorry. but this is my blog. and i m just expressing myself.

2005-03-01T20:42:00.000+08:00

ah
my blog
it was just a few moments before writing this entry that i was thinking
where can i leave down my thoughts
then i realised i still know the meaning of a blog
so here i am
well
to tell u the truth
i dont know where to start
i m very very exhausted today even tho i dint even do anythign at all.
just very very exhausted
mebe its hormones, mebe its illness
i dont know and rite now
i dont really care
mebe tmr when i wake up i will feel better

anyways. it all started when i was pondering on the age old question.
why am i such a loser.
then i was looking around on the comp
and i decided for once to accept something i've never accepted before
that wat i presumed i was right about had been wrong all along
its as possible as any other posibility, just that it SEEMS less likely to me. just like 4d
0000 has as much possibility of coming out as any other number. but. little ppl believe this. cos its such an obscure number that it has come to be understood that it will nto come up.

same as this possibility in my life.
wat if. i m just some childish piece of shit and dont know anythign abt life while i think i do.
wat if. i m just some sucker who thinks he can handle human relationships well, but he cant
mebe this is why i m such a loser

u know. march holidays last year. i loved that time. and i hated that time.

it was the greatest coincidence ever, that i met her. it was the worst part of growing up ever, that i am going to change and so will all the ppl around me

i hate it. yet i love it.

the person i knew was cheerful and bright person. someone whom i thought to be quite untainted by human psychology. some one whom i thought, her mindset wont change.

now, i m not trying to be offensive and aim this at anybody. no offense meant at all. i m just reminiscing how the old days were so good, while how everyone around me has changed so much

anyway. i thought ours were a frenship that could really last. perhaps thats all i felt in there. or perhaps i felt more. i m even unsure now.

2 months maybe a long time, or it may be a short time. its very relative.

perhaps i had thought it was a good enuf time. but perhaps it wasnt

that spark could turn into a passionate flame, or it could turn into a blazing forest fire.

i kept thinking if i kept the spark in control i would be able to turn it into a nice little cozy fire.

now that i look back, comparing wif the present state of the ruins the fire left, i shudnt have tried to control that spark.

perhaps it was just an illusion. nothign but an illusion, that my that friend was nice to me. mebe its a one sided thing. or maybe our frenship was there only because she was nice enuf not to tell me to fuck off. or perhaps there was not enuf memory in the hard disk and some old programmes simply have to be deleted.

i dont know.
i really dont know.

but wat i know is. this isnt wat it shud be

why do ppl change?
why do ppl HAVE TO change?

or perhaps you dint change. i dint know u well enuf

fuck.

wat is this fuck coming to?

why am i so fucked up?

fuck.

well.
i really dont know.
but this possibility is souding more and more convincing by the minute.
that i dont know you well enuf.
maybe i should have waited before telling you on may 29th.
i really dunno.

ong hiok hong. come back to reality.
there are no such things as princesses and no stupid assholes wif a damn sword standing under a moon.

this is like a see-saw. it must be played by 2 ppl and both must be willing to play see-saw.
if one of the players refuse to sit down and play, wat much more can u expect from the otehr person/ he'll just sit at one end and nothign will happen.

same here. i'm sitting on the see-saw already. i've did all i can do for the process of playign the game. but if my fren is unwilling to sit down and rock the seesaw, rock the world wif me, i cant do much.

a demoralised soldier cant fight a war.

nonetheless, i m not giving up. but perhaps, its time to come back to the real world. perhaps i gotta stall this for a while. hold it there.

ong hiok hong. come back to the real world. ppl change and not everybody is the same as before. even urself.you are hiok the loser and thats all. fairytales dont happen. nothing has a happy ending. dont expect one to urs. you are hiok the loser. come back to reality, and give life ur best shot. thats all.

shes like far closer to anybody else than you. what makes you think something so miraculous will happen.

you are hiok the loser. you are in the real world. nothign so miraculous happens. in this realiyt, losers lose and the others reap the benefit. face it hiok. snap back to reality.

stop residing in the warm nest of your fairytale world, where miracles do happen.

go ahead. visit in your mind the shadow of the beautiful past. visit it. but no more.
for now,
live, let live, and live life to the fullest.

i am hiok the loser. this is the way my life goes, and i have to learn to cope wif it or die. and u all have to learn to cope wif me or die.

this is me. you can like me, you can hate me. but this is me. and i am tired of being left alone on the seesaw. this doesnt mean i leave the playground. this means i occupy myself while i wait for you to sit on the other end.. or i wait til u tell me to leave.

since i m back in reality i shall simplify everythign in plain and straightforward terms. basically i m just pretty much fucked up over the fact that i used to be able to relate so well to this friend of mine, but after a period of almost one year, she seemd to have changed. not in the negative sense, but changed in the sense like, she has new frens, and too many frens results in the negligence of some older/more distant ones. this is part of growing up and its inevitable. but that doesnt prevent me from feeling fucked up frm it. so anyway, because of this change, we seemed to have drifted so so so far apart. i do try, to talk when we're online. in other words i m still sitting on the seesaw. i m waiting to see if she'll return to the play ground and sit at the other end again. i wish she'd come back. but ppl change. and i guess ppl just dont like hanging out wif losers, and even if not so, maybe ppl just dont have enuf space in their minds to cope wif al ltheir frens and they have to leave them out. which ever it is, i m sure it is not my friend, but rather, life's fault. changing is part of growing up. so now that i m left alone at the seesaw, thinking sometime in the near future she will come and sit there again. perhaps she will. but i dont think it will be in the near future. i gotta come back to reality. she aint gonna go near the seesaw in the near future. perhaps in the future. but not the near future. yea. so basically i think i will stop at this point for a while, and just be a normal average 14 year old loser, and live life as it is.

yea. so this is me. you can like me, you can hate me. but this is me.
and however much i like to visit the shadow of the beautiful past, i will
live, let live, and live life to the fullest.

2005-02-23T21:37:00.000+08:00

ah well. nobody i know is doing the damn chem ws. and i dunno how to do. so yah. learn from others; dont do. tmr in sch mass copy from daniel.

shit and i still ahve music work. but i decided to digress a little to write a little abt this.

i was just wondering. would u ratehr be an egoist, or a loser?

u may have seen my msn nick. nice rhyme. ego fuck or emo fuck. egoism or emotional. self-centered or loser. i just wondered who would take wat.

well
i dunno if i m ego or not i cant judge myself
so i guess i m the emo fuck. i m the loser

yea.

i dont relaly understand egoists. i mean its good to know ur strengths and be self confident. but egoism is just plain arrogance. and i dont understand that. sometimes, in my mind i give myself a bit of freedom just to boost my self confidance. but not to such an extent

i relally dont understand the mentality of an egoist. someone care to explain to me?

oh and i erally wanna know ur opinions. is an egoist or a loser better?

2005-02-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

lol.
today is stupid.
we had our 3rd guitar pt session since i joined in sec 1. good accomplishment.
its not like i skip or anything. its just they decide to scrap pt for fun. which is lame.
and then i was like speculating how fun it'd be if i came back to RI to be a teacher next time

i decided if i ever did, my first day would be somethign lame like:
[introduction of myself]
[ask for a volunteer]
'wats ur name?'
'antagonize me. be rude to me. be unruly. or just say u dint hand up ur work.'
[after he does the thing]
'ok. pump 20'
[after he reluctantly pumps 20]
'ok. remind me i owe u a chocolate bar'
'now boys. as you can see, i dont believe in corporal punishment, nor capital punishment. i believe in pumping. anyone does any offence, whether from unruly behaviour or just not hand up work, he does pumping.'

i wonder how much fun i'll have. a teacher that pumps you. whee.

fuck tmr i got music. cannot mug geog. betetr go now.

2005-02-21T22:35:00.000+08:00

quite exhausted. ok this blog entry gonna be dedicated to magic the gathering

today bought tourny pack

3 rares.

nezumi thingy that i m selling to yinkwan for 3 bucks.

the two other rares..

myojin of seeing winds and myojin of infinite rage.

WTF

ok so anyway. heres a list of rares and some uncommons i m selling. take a look and reply to me if u all want.

1 foil student of elements
1 myojin of infinite rage
1 foil fumiko the lowblood
3 magma giant
1 vulshok battlemaster
1 zozu the punisher
1 benben the akki hermit
1 patron of the orochi-(currently reserved but most probably able to be sold. offer price first)
1 sakiko mother of summer
1 troll ascetic
1 foil sakura tribe spring caller
1 final judgment
2 bushi tenderfoot
1 foil moon lit strider (this is seriously cool. the pic la)
1 oath-keeper takeno's daisho
1 neko-te
1 tendo ice bridge

these are all the rares or foils i m selling.

there.

2005-02-20T00:55:00.000+08:00

hi all.

haiz

anyway. um. oh yah i rmred wat i wanted to say

you know my blog pic rite? i drew a few more to make it into a story sort of thingy. i'm plannign on drawing more.

then today while practicing piano i decided to compose a piece and i dint know what to compose on.. then i decided to make a piece on those pics. lol. i'm done wif teh first movement.

yea. i m in xlab wif kevin mark lee and gabriel ng. and we dont really know wat to do for our animation project (other than the possibility of a soccer match).

so i was thinking. when i do more of the pics and the music, i'll show to them and ask if they wanted to adopt this as our project. its not that bad.

and if we win anythign at the tech symposium i will sit down and tell u all in one long blog entry wat inspired me to draw these pics.

that is if we win anything.

haiz. well. thats abt all. i have lotsa work undone, no revision done either. i've been composing all day, and i've only come up wif abt 5 pages of manuscript. and at 1 am now then i m actualyl coming on line. wtf.. so yah. hope i can finish most of the pics and the philo journal tonight..

thats all i guess.

btw the 3rd movt of my piece is gonna be caleld 'the complicated simplicity of the perfect imperfection'. its a dan guailan double oxymoron.

bye

2005-02-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

fuck
haiz
i wonder if its me
i hope not
but its called a gut feeling
i think its me.
fuck
fuck la
shit
parallels are drawn by comparison.
and the more we compare, the more fucked up the lousier party seems
i used to think trying is better than not trying
my mindset seems to be changing
and so is yours, abt other matters.
is trying better than not trying?
i'll still try anyway.
but a demoralised soldier will lose in the battlefield

2005-02-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

hihihi

reply to tags:

readon! lol. er. yea. actually the pic's supposed to be a bit more bigger. just that i made it fit just rite wif IE so its not jutting out. sadded sia.. oooh whose the girl. hmm. lets think. its a princess that does not let down her hair but instead ties it up in one ponytail behidn her. great help eh

serene! haha ok.. um. i look worse than spastic in the photo. the class photos are when i look... urm.. well all i can say is swearing is prohibited in s'pore and u can get fined so i shall not comment on how i look in the photo. thnx for tagging (:

timothy! i thot u had scanner.. anyway u would have enjoyed todya's french lesson la. dman fun.. u'll know what we learnt to day later this entry.. yea u can borrow my notes

haha today's french was sick. we were learning body parts and NOPE. we dint learn about those 3 parts. rather. monsieur quenot went on normally.
so arm is called bras. like les bras
so monsieur quenot was like
'attention girls! when you fall sick in france and u go to the doctor for an injection, and he says 'donner ses bras', dont get the wrong idea.." for those not takign french donner means give.
and then followed lots of jokes la. haha yumin would have liekd this session but too bad he damn jacked. skip third lang lor.

last note: ocean baked pasta ROCKS. get it between 2-6 so as to get the 30% off. 6.40 only for the damn nice pasta.

byee

2005-02-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

ll. I mwriting this at very very late. Stayed up quite a bit to do my new blog pic. Yep. I know its a quick change but i thot this would suit my dark romance theme of the blog more. Haha. Got the idea from drawing one of the Ls in class.. lol. So yup. Sketched it on paper, edited wif adobe photo shop. And here it goes ! nice lil blog pic ! haha. So now my whole blog is black and white… lol. Yep. Give me new comments abt my creation pls !!! (:

yea. Late. Gotta go do work lia. Its past twelve. Lol. Haha.

bye!

2005-02-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

yea ok thnx for all the tags guys. wasnt on comp yesterday. thnx. its getting better now. his slowly becoming normal. thats good. but i guess. everyone's human. teachers, parents all get pissed off sometimes. so yah.

today in class we did 'L's for the class deco
its dman nice la. everyone's L was nice. some of us did more than just one L. yea. then theres timothy's axe like thingy, seetows obscenity, and readon and japheth's Ls wif everyone's name on it. haha. its relaly nice. i did 5 Ls la. ditn feel like doing work so i did extra. i liked the one wif the madness guy and the one wif thesmall knight and small lady and the heart shape. shud really have scanned it in as blog pic. haha. oh YES. not to forget the one that is composed of the words 'techno. its basically techno repeated over and over again to form the letter L. LOL.

whee. nothign to write accept i got a lot of work. so

cya.

2005-02-14T21:19:00.000+08:00

Haiz I dunno wat to do leh.. I dunno why but my dad is suddenly so strict on me using the comp.. plus for not that much good reason. I’m still managing my work well. Nothings really gone wrong except.. my dad. Cos he just suddenly restricts me to doing everything. I really dun understand. Like I wanna watch vcd yesterday after I LONG LONG finish my work. He said only half an hour.. I mean watch wat dman vcd. Go vcd watch half an hour and be so good and comprehensive and such a nice story, I also wanan buy. Then after that, watch 50 minutes la. Left abt half and hour only. He said stop watching. and those small small stuff he also dunno why blow it big and start scolding me. Bring homework to aunt’s place to do is SO NOT = to not being able to finish ur work. I have left like dman little work, and I juz wanna maximise my time at my aunt’s place. And there he goes blasting me for not beign able to finish my work on time. So never mind. Come back I comfortably finish all my homework. Fort some reasons he started the vcd thing lor. Wtf. Then today he sounded so frenly and nice and everything. Until we got home. He reminded me no comp till I finish homework. Then I said I need msn for group discussion. He said ok. But no else thigns (that includes this but I don’t care) until I finish the other of my non comp homework. I’m ok wif that. Then he asks me wat homework. I said that English, and chem., and some others. He ask me wat else. I said I cant really remember. And he tells me to shut down the dman comp. I’m like. Wtf la. And all on top of me being patien t and nice in my tone of voice! Wth has gotten into him. I hope he becomes the usual him soon. Cos I’ll rather him siding wif my siblings (cos their young) than to be so erratic and just shooting me down liddat.

Well.. of course I know that he is human. He gets stressed at work and he gets pissed sometimes. But this is slightly getting too erratic and consistent to be just him letting out steam. Yea I appreciate that he concerns abt me whether I do my work, or whether I can manage my time or not. I appreciate that. But the truth is, at this point I believe I can still manage my time, and my work. I do mentally note and appreciate his concern, but seriously, this is too over control, whether his letting out steam or not. This is going overboard. And I hope he stops. I love him. I don’t want him to have the image of a controlling person in my mind.i hope this stops.

2005-02-11T20:30:00.000+08:00

haiz so much homework.

YEA MAN!!! i just realised i own the second most wanted card on www.findmagiccards.com
final judgment! US$6.21

ist basically a wrath of god. white also. remove all creatures from the game. anyone wanna buy?

ok la go do work liao.

2005-02-11T12:31:00.000+08:00

er... look at wat i found

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=41393&item=6152982469&rd=1&ssPageName=WDVW

some one is seliing a toenail on ebay. free nail clippers.

lol

2005-02-10T19:20:00.000+08:00

heyheyheyheyhey!!!!! yea. new blog layout! gimme some comments via tagboard? mostly rushed work cos i am tired )): but i think its quite ok anyway. so gimme comments ya?

haiz i havent done any homework [other than chinese ting xie gai zhen] so yah shit la.

and i m getting writers blog for the thing argh. and i cant post it on saturday so i must post it on friday, but still make sure it reaches on monday... wow so i must be precise and only post it durign the period between 5.15 pm and 5.30 pm. holy... but i must finish planning, writing and folding by today... wtf... haiz. why did i procrastinate???

ok sorry this is a blgo so somethigns are just thoughts thrown out of my mind so mebe u wont udnerstand wat i m tokking sometimes ya? well gg to go off now. hopefully wont procrastinate much until i resume doing that thign agian.

yes and gimme comments on the changes on this blog. made the pic myself so its not that good. haha so yea bye!

4days

2005-02-10T01:45:00.000+08:00

oh yea and the pic looks fucked up right now. dont worry. trust me it looks great at the normal size. must make it bigger tmr.

2005-02-10T01:40:00.000+08:00

hi all. its 1240am now yay. fuck. eh how come nobody wanan buy my cards. i need cash! lol. i sold the betrayers life counter to choonhiang for 3 bucks and oathkeeper, takeno's daisho. worth it la. pls lor the counter is practicalyl useless... other than to choon hiang la his a collector. so yah.

anyway. i edited the blog. i think it looks worse. will try to work on the lay out of the blog soon. i m tired. iuts 1241 lor pls. so yah another time. in the meantime comment on the new changes pls??? thnx!

5days

2005-02-08T17:52:00.000+08:00

hi all!!! hapyp chinese new year! have loadsa work to do thru-out this holiday! ): haiz. anyway. i got flu... argh. nvm la. wil lrecover one. sore throat, running nose, etc. haiz

anyway. ppl who play magic. i got a lot of cards for sale... betrayers and champs, some mirrodin, some fifthdawn some dark steel... mroe of betrayers and champs. wil llist some i can remember...

[for foil land colelctors]
1 foil island
2 foil swamps

1 foil fumiko the lowblood
1 foil moonstrider
1 foil sakura tribe spring caller
1 foil student of the elements
1 myojin of infinite rage
1 tatsumasa
1 final judgment

cant rmr liao. so contact me in anyway if u want any of them. and i'm looking out for walker of the secret ways cos the picture rox. ;) hehe.

aaah well. happy new year.

oh shit just realised i have only 3 - 4 days to write it argh.

7days

2005-02-03T22:20:00.000+08:00

ok as promised the entry number 2
now i dont really know how to express it. but i wanna talk about appreaciation
its a nice thign to tok abt
see. everythign has a purpose
everythign has value, however little.
thats why everythign shud be appreciated.
electricity. dont waste. one day when u dont have it. so appreciate now
water. food. clothing. money. all must be appreciated. because one day when u need it it may just not be there any more. appreciate.
most of all. appreciate ppl.
the world was a coincidence. if perhaps a molecule or a particle flew slightly off course from the big bang, we might not have existed.
its a coincidence that we actually exist.
therefore appreciate it., appreciate life.
just rmr. wat ever ur elders, ur seniors, ur teachers, ur mentors, ur frens, do for u, it is out of heart.
ur teacher scolds u. he is only human. he gets pissed. he gets fucked up due to lack of rest. he is a human. if he scolds u out of spite, its becos his human, and he gets pissed sometimes. if he scolds u for a mistake, it is out of love. for he only wants to correct ur wrong doing, telling u wat u shud do next.
even if its a screwed up teacher.
ur parents. they provide u wif everythign currently. but sometimes they scold u and u dislike them. think only this in mind. they are humans. they get pissed cos of work too. and if its again to correct ur mistake, then it is out of love. they are ur parents. it is their duty to bring u up as an upright person, whtehr u decide to turn bad next time. they scodl u out of love. they provide u wif everything. money. food. shelter. privilleges. and the occasional scoldings needed to keep up in line. they provide us wif everything. appreciate.
ppl around u. they help u they love u they teach you they show you.
wat ever it is, this life, this reality
it is all but a coincidence
humans being created, its a coincidence
life exists in this realm. a coincidence too
me meeting u. a coincidence too.
falling in love. a coincidence.
engaging life long frens/mentors. coincidence.
coincidences come once in a life time. appreciate before it is too late.

from now on i'll do my best to appreciate wat ever that is done for me, be it in the way i like it, or the way i dont like. so logn as it is done for me, and done out of sheer concern and love. i'll appreciate. even if u dont do anythign for me. even if its just ur existence as a true fren of mine. i'll appreciate. be cause chances like this come once in a life time. coincidences like this only happen once. in this life.

and i suggest everyone shud appreciate as well. cos if u dont, u'll just let someone down, and later, when u realise this, u would let urself down.

if everybody appreciates, we will all feel appreciated. and that feelign of being appreciated. i tell u. its divine.

appreciate. wat a great word that is. deriving all of life's meaning from it.

10days

2005-02-03T22:12:00.000+08:00

'life gives you back what you give out'

there are 3 types of ppl in this world. the optimist, the pessimist and the loser

[ok this is supposed to be my speech for oral comm but its rather amusing so i'll put it up]

there are 3 types of ppl in this world. the optimist, the pessimist and the loser

the optimist gives a positive out look about life. he is happy in life, and having a positive outlook, treats ppl and events well. life gives him back wat he gives; in return life is good to him and becos of his positive outlook, he sees life as a good life and he enjoys it

the pessimist. he gives a negative outlook about life. he looks at things negatively, treats ppl and situations negatively and thus life gives him back wat he gave it. life is bad for him, and he wouldn't enjoy it. becos of his negative outlook, he sees life as sad and hopeless, making life difficult for himself and others.

the loser. he gives life a positive (sometimes insane) outlook. but life still gives him shit. thats why he is in this special third category. input = positive, out put = negative. enuf said.

haha me is lame. will make a second post slightly later about appreciation.

2005-02-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

hi everyone. dinner at 1001 pm! haha and its shit. theres rotten vegies and yellowish has browns. how nice. whee.... today is fucked up. i have no homework yet i have not slacked yet. cos i need to mug and i have music homework. shit wtf. haiz. thats why i m eating dinner now. actually, i dont have much to blog about either... will try to find intyeresting events and block... haha so there!

12 days

2005-01-31T20:01:00.000+08:00

this is the pic of tian kai at GEP camp. haha this is the pic i mentioned! its such a nice and sweet photo!!! i would name it photo of the year la! its freakign nice and heart-warming! haha. i lvoe it!

nothign else much to tag. except got new addidas sneakers. sad they not supposed to be for running. look real nice! haha. superstar DM! (:

13 days

2005-01-30T20:52:00.000+08:00

hi
blogging
nothign much to be writing about.
wanted to change my blogskin today
but i thot white is still nice and fine wif me
and the pic is still quite good in expression
and i still love the song 'only one'
so yah. other wise i was thinking of putting the background back to black, with the pic as the gep camp campfire.
but nah. i still liek my current one. however i would like a slight change. its getting a bit stale...
haha.
anyways.
i m selling pictures. i have the exclusive gep camp photo of tiankai being very very kind and benelovent. shall auction it. interested buyers can contact me via tag board. haha.

hey give some suggestions on changing of my blog skin?

till, then, tatas!

15 days...

2005-01-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

wow. today almost became my worst night ever
i mean life, u stupid big bully
i knwo u play tricks on me all the time
and i like prob has affinity wif u. just negative affinity
but anyway u play many nasty tricks on me all the time
today almost became the final straw, u bully
but luckily
u spared me
u planned it all alogn to scare the lifelights out of me dint you?
stupid bully
and so
judgment day was delayed yet again by atyping error
wow.
but it wil lcome
anyone can see it coming
but only a stupid person will walk into it, the evitable
and even if it is not a show of ___________, it must have been
high because
(and i m sad to say)
fortune favours not the bold, but the rich
where do u stand when u have no cash
hiok u stupid shit

btw if u all are wondering why the references to 'life', no i m NOT suicidal. in fact i m totally anti suicidal.

IT is my heart

judgment day happens in 20 days time.

2005-01-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

Yellowcard - Only One

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note
For you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

you (yes its you) you are my only one

2005-01-19T21:04:00.000+08:00

hello. yay. i just realised how screwed i m i have so many projects to do. and so many fuckign books to read. haha. who gives a damn. try to clear some now.
i changed my song to yellowcard - only one. its a dman nice song. i tryign to play on elec guitar but i dunno how. i suck. aiyah go do math ws liao.
bye!

2005-01-17T21:39:00.000+08:00

YAY I GOT MY ELECTRIC GUITAR TODAY!!! ITS A FREAKING NICE BLACK IBANEZ!!!
haha i m hyper
i have to go do my work soon. but who cares! i m tryign to play only one on elec guitar now. i figured i dotn think i shud go for lessons. so i think i'll just need music scores! i m gonna name the guitar!! haha. dotn try to give me suggestions i have decided on the name. hehe.
whee....
saturday when i go for music i sure am gonna go early/end late to search for sheet music! haha!
oh yah and i scored a freak freak goal today haha. zhemin drive up left flank, then cross to me. then i slide and pokked it into the goal! haha . freak freak.
ok la better go try and do work liao. bye!

2005-01-16T14:20:00.000+08:00

hi ppl! hi to all who tagged! thnx for keeping the board alive at least. haha. i've been procrastinating lilke siao.. and realised i have a damn freakign lot of work to finish today. )x.. nvm. shall go do work soon.
got my electric guitar yesterday! its an ibanez! there was this damn damn damn damn cool orange one that i wanted to get.. but the otehr one was 20 bucks cheaper (...) and had better sound.. so hyqel (my senior who went wif me) said its better to get the better one (duh) so i got it. but i had to wait till monday to collect it cos they did not have any more black colour. i really want that orange one!! its so funky and all. ):
oh i figured i dont think i will be going for courses. i just need guitar scores lol. ok la betetr go do work liao. bye!

2005-01-10T20:45:00.000+08:00

i dunno wat to blog abt
this blog is quite dead. i also dunno wat to write. when i song and got time i change template again. doubt so la. too lazy too tired too bz wdv.
today is a crap day for me. i got a gigantic bruise on my chin bone and calf. yea it covers parts of both so u know how big it is. i injured it on friday. btu it dint show any colour. today jon lim from 2K slid me twice LOL. at the injured part. damn pain. its green and purple now. cool. its not his fault tho. its soccer. its not like he did it on purpose so yah its fine.
i'm very slow. cos i recently realised how freaking shit i m in soccer. i camp and i cant score. i m shit. haiz.
then guitar today was fun. haha mr raj the new teacher is far more nice that mr toh. he thot us how to play hoobastank the reason on guitar today lor. like wat does mr toh teach us?. love story. scarborough fair. -.- i mean yea some of the songs are nice like yesterday once more and tie a yellow ribbon round the old oak tree. but its a bit the too late for us to learn those songs. it'd be good if we learnt them like 20 years ago. but yea anyway haha see you mr toh! hope to see u in the near future.
haiz.. nothign better to say also la. but my tag board has been quiet. go do work liao.

i'm the most screwed up person on earth. thank you. )):

2005-01-08T13:03:00.000+08:00

wow its very boring at pretty screwed up at home. i mean. theres nothign much else to do other than hoem work. so its boring and screwed up.. but at least i m trying to learn californication and boulevard of broken dreams on guitar. classical guitar. they sound good enuf if i can look at the score.. but haha i still can sing and play for californication.. haha but it sounds ok tho. hmm go off liao la. go do home work and prep for musique!
bye!

2005-01-05T13:47:00.000+08:00

YAYYYYY
doc cleared me for school!!!!! yay yay yay!!!

but i got a feeling ppl will shun me.. cos i have scabs all over me. yea.. scabs still on.. but doc says scabs on its ok, just so long as they dont have any water in side.. yea so well. yay i m back.. but i keep getting this feeling i forgotten to do osmething.. nvm. i m back for school!!!!!!

2005-01-04T15:44:00.000+08:00

wah shit. why am i cooped at home when i have my due freedom outside?!?!?! why shit pox why???
nvm. their all drying up now. but they just wont fall.a lot on my scalp has come off tho. yuk.
i have to extend a few thankyous in this post

thank you sibi, will tom, ppl whom i eat wif for third lang etc, thx a lot for ur decision to wait until i come back then u all eat pasta wif me ;) haha thx ya? i appreciate it but i think i may have to eat al funghi when i recover.. cos i cant take seafood nor chicken.. wtf..

thank you to all my class mates who cared during this period, esp readon, tom, will, yanzhi, japhethsibi, etc. yah thx for the calls yah? haha sibi is so excited by the fact that we're gonnah ave third lang again. i wonder is he excited abt eating out, learning french, or to see mme tse? LOL

yea thats abt it.. till i return tmr.

the angel from my nightmare

2005-01-03T16:50:00.000+08:00

Hi And Goodbye

by A-Teens

I see you walking down the street

I catch your eye before we meet

But you look down to check your feet

I wish I'd say 'Are you okay?

You're looking better everyday'

But I just smile and walk away

Why did two lovers

End up like strangers

When did we stop seeing eye to eye

Everyday

You took my breath away

But now there's no reply

Only hi, goodbye

Like a dream come true

When it was me and you

Now I just don't know why

We say hi and

Hi and goodbye

I know it sounds like a cliché

But when I pass our old café

It almost feels like yesterday (like yesterday)

We shared a blanket in the cold

To give a promise made of gold

We had a deal through heart and soul

Why did two lovers

End up like strangers

When did we stop seeing eye to eye

Everyday

You took my breath away

But now there's no reply

Only hi, goodbye

Like a dream come true

When it was me and you

Now I just don't know why

We say hi and

Hi and goodbye

I remember the way

We always had words to say

And nothing could tear us apart

I knew you by heart

We were eye to eye (eye to eye)

Now we're only hi and goodbye

(low wisper): hi & goodbye

Everyday You took my breath away

But now there's no reply

Only hi, goodbye

Like a dream come true

When it was me and you

Now I just don't know why

We say hi and

Hi and goodbye

Everyday You took my breath away

But now there's no reply

Only hi, goodbye

Like a dream come true

When it was me and you

Now I just don't know why

We say hi and

Hi and goodbye

Hi and goodbye good(bye)

Hi and goodbye

Oooooooooohhhhh

Hi and goodbye (goodbye)

2005-01-03T11:29:00.000+08:00

lol.
i'm online at school hours and theres only two ppl onlin on my contact list..
theres evelyn who prob left her comp on therefore not replying and theres kee en, whos in new zealand for a month..
me? still got chiken pox. those ~~chicks~~ pox all over me.. haiz.. wish i could go back to school.. hopefully by thursday, but i got a damn fucked up feeling that it'd only recover on friday.. lol

SINGAPORE 4 - 2 MYANMAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AGG: S'PORE 8 - 5 M'MAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and the stupide reserve goal keeper for myanmar threw a water bottle at subramani... wtf..

did i mention 3 ppl were sent off? one for a double yellow card, 2nd yellow card cos of tough challenge on daniel bennett. 2nd person was cos he brought down indra in the penalty box, and third was because the guy protested at the previous foul beingawarded to a penalty, and he kicked mud at the officials. then kena red card also.. but i must agree the stupide refree is damn kayu. s'pore shudda won it long long long time ago lor. cos the noh alam sha goal is NOT A FRIGGIN HANDBALL. but anyway, the stupid refree got his dessserts.. haha mud all over his shirt, andlater on, noh alam sha scored a hat trick!!! yea man go u tampines rovers boy!!!

ok wdv. anyway. haiz.. everybody's enjoying in school.. while i m rottign at home.. haiz. wait until i recover.. *player out of play due to injury* LOL. bye!

2005-01-02T15:00:00.000+08:00

lolllll. school startign tommorow. yayaaaaargh

yay cos:
1. no need to sit thru head master's assembly
2. no lessons

aaargh cos:
1. missing school
2. missing homework (LOL)
3. missing friends
4. missing soccer
5. missing moelc
6. missing going for french(LOLLLL)
7. missing going to eat pasta..

wow shit. i cant go to school tmr. and doc says the least must be on thursday. haiz shit. shit if i go on thurs means i must do music homework. shit. aaargh....

nvm. haiz.. but i miss school (actually, translated, that means i miss frens and soccer)

haiz..

2004-12-31T15:16:00.000+08:00

Last Christmas - Jimmy Eat World

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
The very next day you gave it away
This year to save me the tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
The very next day you gave it away
This year to save me the tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
The very next day you gave it away
This year to save me the tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
The very next day you gave it away
This year to save me the tears
I’ll give it to someone special

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Now I‘ve found the real love, now I found
You’ll never fool me again!

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man undercover but you tore me apart
Now I‘ve found the real love, now I found
You’ll never fool me again!

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
The very next day you gave it away
This year to save me the tears
I’ll give it to someone special

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
The very next day you gave it away
This year to save me the tears
I’ll give it to someone special

its pretty repetitive i know, wif only 8 lines of different words in the whoel song. but its damn nice, u must admit! haha. i lvoe this song. its one of those i'll never listen enuff of. even tho its not christmas haha. nothing to blog about. so i shall go off till then . ciao.

2004-12-31T01:15:00.000+08:00

um hi ppl again. just a quick one b4 i go. i think i gonna change my blgo song by tonight. to jimmy eat world - last christmas. its very late for a christmas song, but that song is damn fucking nice. so i m gonna use it! anyway hope the uploading works. if it does u wil lehar it! iots damn ncie. if it doesnt i'll use anotehr good charlotte song.

2004-12-30T23:01:00.000+08:00

hi
i m damn bored.
haha. oh yah ppl in 1L who plays soccer frequently wif the class.
godo news for u! i played fifa 05 today and i went to change the default settings. so i when to crystal palace, deleted all the players, then created our own 1L class team there! haha sibi dotn worry i did put u in, seeing how u always want to be part of us lol. jk jk. if there are two names means alternate.
haha so here goes:
seetow.1.keeper
samuel.8.RB
qianwei/ahgong.5/19.RCB
timothy.17.LCB(i put ur shooting power as 100.. LOL)
will.24.LB(on his request. i wanted him to be 2nd choice kepper)
tom.22.LWAM
gabbytong.20.LCAM
jape.7.RCAM
zeming.3.RWAM
gabbyng.12.CF(how can u not be there?)
hiok(theloser)/carvin.13/2.CAMPER

subs: yanzhi(GK),choonhiang(CB),shaun(LB),yinkwan(CB),perfect(CM),gan(LAM),sibi(CM)

hahahahahaha. damn lame rite?

been playign the whoel day lol. i woke up at 2.30 today lor. cos i was reading hannibal until 4 last night. haha. i m very bored leh.
oh yah and my pox is better. one in my hair and one near my mouth dropped out yay.but many still got pus in them. hope they can drop off in 3 days time.

WOW. time pasts damn fucking fast. its the eve of new years eve already? if i can make it tmr night i will stay up. and if i can find enuf interesting things that happened to 1L this passing year, i'll post them ok?

and mean while, i shall go continue the creation of the class poker cards. LOL. its lame la., but i figured its quite nice. but its not exactly the common type. it'd be like. 1-24 for normal cards, and ace would be Will ,teh disciplinarian, jack will be timothy the ~~bishan gay~~ treasurer, king will be tom the monitor. and queen will be.. hmm.. lets just say a tres belle et jolie personne. 'personne' parce que le personne n'est pas un homme, et n'est pas une femme. LOL. nvm. i m getting lamer and lamer into the boredom of the night. haha jk jk .

i m going to read hannibal later in the night! its real nice. last time i said mason verger was influence by lecter and fed his face to his pet dogs? now we found out he ate his own nose as well! haha. yuk. then lecter in florence, disguised as a scholar called dr. fell, hung a policeman frm a window cos he was after him. and i learnt that doing that sometimes causes the bowels to fall out. YUCK. and much more gross stuff in the book. too much to mention. lol. its very disgusting yuck.

well, i better go off now. to do otehr stuff. cya.

2004-12-28T11:07:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
OMG
ri ppl totally rock at soccer predictions. wif skills like that we're like fucking bound to win any soccer betting competitions
OMG
OMG OMG OMG
CARVIN is 6th in ranking in the world, out of 19396 ppl in the world!!!! he is 6th in teh fuckign leader boards la! i mean if he gave his real address for signing up, he just won free tix to a soccer match in uk. OMG

and then i very happy cos i m 9th in the world for most added this month! i plus 49, and this week i plus 17 LOL. i m damn dman happy. dunno if i get the budweisser shirt tho. i dint give my real adddress LOL. OMGGGGGG i m so happy! we rock man!

hahahahahaha i think if my mood is so good for the whole fuckign day, i'll prob like recover trm or something!!!! hahahahahahahahaha

til later! ((:

2004-12-27T14:24:00.000+08:00

a lot of ppl's been writing wat they think obt their class mates. so i shall as well. fan zhen its end of year liao la.

pengseng! hi baker! ur actually quite a nice guy and fun as well at times. but dont over do it ok? haha i really miss the times when suddenly u'd come behind us and carry us away LOL. esp when u do it on tim. hahahahaha. you baker. and i rmr mrs d cruz saying she lieks to bake. haha.

carvin! fello0w man u fan! david bellion scores more goals than a lot of other team's strikers LOL. its true la. and ur ikts is so pro. u were almost top ten la. but sadly u've dropped to 18 liao. ): haha but nvm. u rock at ikts. i must get al lur predictiosn next time. and ur camping is very pro nowadays. and dont watch too much epl. its causing u to shout back pass and off side in a lto of our class games. haha. rock on.

zeming! haha. we dont tok a damn lot, but we sure share a lot of mrt trips home! oh yah and chalet u tried taking a pic of me in swimming trunks. haha. luckily ur phone camera not that good :P haha. u seem to be always day dreaming in class, but then ur results are all not that bad lor. so pro. i dont pay attention adn my results are crap. haha. and ur soccer is damn damn pro. u are mad la. u aerial skills are damn pro. haha. good luck next year!

daaaanniiielll! hi perfect. why are u so smart.. hmphf. haha. so pro. must help me wif work next time ok. and stop argueing/jacking/quarrelling wif matthew neo, readon and zhi hao. haha. still rmr the good old times when we always jack u to read the longest para in ke wen. hahahahaha. damn fun. hahah. it rox lor. really damn amusing. hahaha. okok sorry. haha. well, good luck next year as well.. wait u dont need good luck ur so smart. haha. okok jk jk

qianwei! i knew it all along. its on fo the tag lines of good charlotte's 'predictable'. do u like know them? haha nvm. and u ARE depressed. u dont suck. fei zhou bu shi guo jia. haha its fun wif u in class lor. mmhm. and yes yes we all know u love cola flavoured lollipops. ;) i think i still have the recording on my phone. haha. see u next year!

yuneng! hi yuneng! haha. hey ur very vocal in class. but dont just be vocal. be active! be positive! be helpful! and your gonna be even more accepted into our class society even more! u are a very good writer, so utilise that to help u in ur studies! and try not to read in class. i mean theres recess and lunch. so pay attention in class! rock on!

japheth! hey u always complain ur not good instudies when u are, ok? haha. ur typing speed and comp skills are so pro. and u listen to a lot of songs. but dont download anymore frm next year onwards ok? the police are closing in. haha .nvm. . rock on dude!

samuel! wahliu. u keep on making all the funny noise in our class wif pengseng! and i recorded ur 'grumbling' frm the aussie hotel. haha. u can make such noises lor. so pro. i cant. haha. techno ar! and u are very pro la. u have spare time, and yet u are so good in ur studies and work. wahaha. mmm. class star defender also! best of luck next year! and go take up ice skating ;). rock on.

chengwai! hello. ur very pro in maths. and enthu as well! thats why u can do so good. haha. better be less forget ful next year ok? and stop staying back in school wif pengseng to tok abt runescape and do um. some *stuff*. haha lol. jkjk. yea but its fun having u aroudn in class!

paul! lol. dunno if u still rmr but ur my ho hia di! haha. ur my sworn brother la. soemtimes u get talkative in class, but well at tiems ur company is well appreciated! its fun having u around as well! and yes. austin powers rock. hahahahaha. well. good luck next year!

matthew neo! u everytime jack daniel ar u very bad leh. but u are like a damn nice guy and u seriously rock la. i mean. u dont tok a lot of cock or funny stuff. but then u like to walk past ppl and spout damn cool one-liners! haha. and mdm mas wants u to be cec next year. hahahahaha. i agree tho. u'd be strict at times, but whos better to be a cec than someone who frequently eats in class ;) rock on!

gabby ng! our class' damn pro, damn zai, damn shuai , damn cute guy! haha. and ur liek our class best soccer player lor. but u keep sayign u suck. haha. obviously u dont. our class star striker! ((: ur doing well in ur studies, while at the same time have adequate time for soccer! and ur so lucky to have siblings that can play soccer wif u! haha. u r damn pro at soccer. and ur laffter is weird hahahaha. oh NO!!! i forgot! i forgot to mention one thing. ur probably one of the best in art in the whole of sec 1 gep lor! ur sketches are always sososososososo pro! but then everytime we say that u crumple it up and dump it. dman wasted la. and.. magic lance! slash metal! elven warrior that brigns justice thru the light of their eyes! hahahahaha. if yinkwan and u see this i wonder wat u all will do. hahaha!

readon! wahlao. u are damn lucky la. u get such nice phones. hehe. and mp3. and i always come home wif u by mrt. and then we go buy bubble tea. LOL. oh and i tried champagne grape. its really nice. i agree. haha. hope to by more wif u next year! and ~~stop~~ continue ganging up wif matthew to jack daniel!. haha!

seetow! class star keeper. u felt damn down that day when tian kai scored a last minute goal against us. haiz. nvm la its not ur fault. u are seriously good in soccer la. u dont liek flying dive and catch all the shots, but ur reactions are quite fast know? u just reach a hand there and block it. ur dman pro la. eh i wanna go watch s'pore vs myanmar wif u! but i cant.. ): anyway. good luck! and new day new discovery. new night new baby! haha. rock on!

shaun! shaun ur one of those talented ppl who can say lame stuff and make them damn funny! treasure ur talent boy! and stop sayign u quit debates ok? come for training. its fun la.ur boys brigadier bag pipe band! haha. well. see you next year!

choonhiang! actually, ur quite a nice guy and yup! i've enjoyed ur company for the year! and next tiem dont spend ur money on the bull shit bag, ok? its 2 bucks for one lol.haha nvm la. u cant undo it. anyway, pay attention more in class and do finish ur work ok? if its given on monday finish it by monday, if not, by tuesday, even if its due on friday. jin ri shi, jin ri bi. and mug a lot a lot more ok? if u need help just ask anybody in our class we're all more than willing to help! rock on!

timothytan! eh. we know u are quite tall, have a dark complexion, and strong legs, and is every girl's dream. haha. stop pumping so hard in soccer la! very pain one leh. haha. and look out for pengseng! haha. ur a very fun guy, and i'm sure everybody in our class enjoyed ur company this year! and stop laffing so hysterically in class, jumping up and down frm ur seat! haha. wish u well!

zhihao! been same class wif u for 3 years already! ur good in studies, and u knwo ur limits, when to be fun and when not to go over board. i rmr the times when i'd steal ur shoe and dump it inside 1J class room or something. ahaha. ur a big man u fan and a giggs fan as well. and now ur crazy over c.ronaldo! haha. ur studies are damn pro lor. u always study beside daniel. no wonder ur near perfection ;). haha. rock on!

gabby tong! heys! once again, sorry. i couldnt make it to sig to the dawn ):. ur not bad in soccer, and u can balnace it wif ur studies. my 1L 1-0 1J was courtesy of ur assist! lo. hmm. and u always shh in class when we get too noisy! haha. hmm been fun wif u too! good luck next year!

yinkwan(polidis)! u have aura know? the ball always go off u one. that day u damn pro la. we have a crap team against a damn pro team and u let in no goals. clean sheet. damn pro. haha. and dont pon co la. go for practice. ur chinese also very pro. miss the days when we count how many paras to the longest para for chines kewen. then we jack daniel! haha. and lvoe irritating u wif fun puns. (no dont PUNch me or PUNmel me for sayign a pun and makign ur day a PUNishable one) LOL!. haha rock on!

tom! haha best frens and buddy! thx for ur encouragements when i m down. andi sstill ahve it in my file lor LOL. thcx for cheering me up when i'm down. and thx for everythign yah? wish to sit beside u next year.. but i cant soose my seat cos i have pox and i wont be back first day of school. shit la. haiz. but anyway, ur good in soccer as well as work, adn thast very good. and ur a damn pro swimmer! u rock!

yanZHI! HI YANZHI! hahahahahaha. stil lrmr when me and yinkwan jack u for reading the kewen . then we always say pinksleevelesstops and u start laffing and u get jacked all over again hHAHAHAHAHA. hahaha. and then u always get smacked in the ass by seetow also LOL. hmm. and i had fun memorising 6 messages in ur in box lol. and i still rmr it! hahaha. anytiem call me i'll recite it to u for added fun!

will! ur a damn nice guy and u've been a very very good fren to mecheering me up when i m down, sharing my joys, sorrows, etc. rmr the shit? hope it wont happen again. hmm. u always call me and chat wif me LOL.i can always relate to u haha. u badminton pro. and u RE pro. hahahahabeen fun knowing u! rock on!

ok la no more liao. so ciao. i go rest/or play xbox liao hahahahahaha bye bye!

2004-12-27T14:13:00.000+08:00

wtf
chicken pox is the gayest shit on earth.
i had 40 degrees fever last night. and i felt terrble
body damn hot . and i have pox everywhere on my body
every fucking place.face.ear.scalp.lips.nearmyasshole.onmy****.every damn place.
its damn shitted.
worst of all i'm prob gonna miss s'pore versus myanmar.

SHIT SHIT SHIT. WHY. sorry la seetow and paul. wanted to go wif u ppl. shit la.

but i figured. i think therefore i m. so i'm trying to tell my self i'll heal tmr. everyday i say that. so sooner or later i'll heal tmr. LOL. nvm. anyway. i think therfor im lor. wat else to do but mentally prepared.

i cant access ikts!!!!! NO NO NO. but the least i shud get shud be around +16 or something. cos BANKER BONUS PLUS 5. wtfwtfwtf.

still go headache. gonna be online only for a while. then i'm like gonna start resting. fuck fuck
fuck chickenpox

i think i will recover tmr. therefore i WILL recover tmr.

2004-12-25T13:23:00.000+08:00

YAY
whee
i m soooooooooo happy
firstly its christmas
secondly i've got MORE POX!!! YAY
no i m not being sarcastic!!! it means i'm on the road to running the stupid full course!!! MORE PLS COME OUT AND DROP FASTER!!!!!!
YAY
YAY
thirdly, my dad sorta gave green light to me learning elec guitar. but i got lectured on not to compromise other stuff. esp homework and piano. LOL. when i go to yamaha next time i make sure i go early and go see the elec guitar course! woohoooooooo
fourthly, i finished all my work. OMG. i did until 1.30 last night!. but i finished my damn stmap! and i even packed my bag so i have nothign more to worry abt otehr than SLACK.. YAY
fifthly.. such a word? actually theres nothign else. thats good. means i have no complaints!!!
YAY
woohoo! chick pox come faster! FASTER man!!! YAY
let me recover faster!!!!!
oh yah and i just remembered i havent open my christmas presents yet.. tho i only have one on my hands. cousin melinde!!! THANK YOU!!! i know its a french calender la so i dont need to open so fast.
my other prezzies are at my aunt's house i think.
ok i jiu ci ting bi (shit write too much chinese essays liao)
ciiiaaaooo! (:

oh and i figured. if i stay positive i may just recover fast. but its not like today has yet anythign to pull me down!!!

2004-12-24T11:49:00.000+08:00

hi
i guess i shud be able to come online for mebe a day more or so.
its gonna get worse
but why doesnt it just all come out faster so its full course runs faster. stupid.
and the one on my stomach broke in my sleep. wtf. and then everyone says its just itchy and no pain. i know itchiness will be at a later stage, but haha whenever the one on my thigh get touched its very painful. lol
u know, i think i m gonna adopt my old pessimistic outlook again. cos when i'm pessimistic, whenever shit happens,i'll either shrug it off or blame theirry henry.
ok
i'm making a list of motivations to recover faster. mebe i'll like print it out and stare at it the whole day

motivations:
1. must go to school
2. see frens
3. play soccer
4. play soccer
5. dun wanna miss school
6. play soccer
7. play comp
8. chat online
9. be back in school in time to enjoy no chinese or history lessons (maternity leave)
10. play soccer
11. 1L 1 - 0 1J
12. recover to eat chocolate
13. ask abt wat to buy
14. birthday
15. 1L 1 - 0 1J
16. play soccer
17. go moelc to see our hot french chick mme tse (eh she is really nice ok)
18. say 'HI YANZHI'
19. eat pastamania wif sibi
20. face the shit wif will (lol)
21. play soccer
22. see frens
23. 1L 1 - 0 1J
24. see frens
25. go hyqel's house for elec guitar
26. form 'the glass is plastic'
27. rock the world wif 'the glass is plastic'

yea those are the motivations.

now ways to cure..

cure:
1. laughter. haha.
2. be cynical so that i can shrug it off when shit happens
3. read hannibal and gross myself out
4. dont think abt any kings or surfing or rox (nvm.. personal)
5. laugh at lame stuff. (... OH MY GOD YOU COULD HAVE BROKEN THE GLASS.. but the glass is plastic)
6. listen to ~~the cure~~ GOOD CHARLOTTE

ok la. sorry for being lame.. its cos i have no events to blog abt..

ok. i'll take advantage that i m not that bad yet to do work..

bye

2004-12-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

i have 5 simple words of wisdom to offer:

confirm its chicken pox. fuck.

>.<

pray i get well in a week. its gonna be record time but well. i DONT WANNA MISS SCHOOL!!!

2004-12-23T20:05:00.000+08:00

btoday has been a bad bad day
i wished i dint wake up
sleep the day away.
i'm very very depressed.
i'm gonna be away frm my frens for damn long
so..
merry christmas
happy new year
and probably happy birthday..

): bye.

2004-12-23T19:55:00.000+08:00

oh shit
SHITshit
shitSHIT
this may be the last time i blog for abt 2 weeks know
i see pox around parts of my body
YUCK
filled wif pus
PUS
its DISGUSTING
i think i got chicken pox
chicks must like me..
ok nvm
ah SHIT
why
i still have work not NOW.
haiz. pray its not chicken pox..
bye comp..

2004-12-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

hello everyone
i decided to dedicate this blog entry to penghui
no i m not trying to make fun of him
and i dunno if he will actually read this
and no we dint argue or fall out or anything
just decided to write one for him lol
hmm hi penghui
a lot of ppl think ur a loser.
but i dont
u know come to think of it i have a lot in common wif u
u seem cold to ur little brother when he comes to ri
well.. i would sometimes. i can understand. perhaps u get the feeling that u look dumb beside ur childish acting brother, rite? yea me too sometimes.
ur enthu in debates. and be cuase u are a little over enthu, u tend to not be able to conttrol urself sometimes, and ppl laff at u. i noticed frm that debate on u havent been as vocal as u had.. perhaps getting laffed at by the debaters caused u to develop a sense of embarassment, and u think u look stupid when ur up there making urspeech. hence being shy and not daring to speak up.
u tried to write poetry and story. but u were shot down. shot down not just by that odd one, but by many. they practically flamed u. and i'm sure if u were given more chances, and not just shot down liddat, u would've been able to improve and be a reasonably good writer.
on the contrary, i was shot down by me.
u try to play soccer, but ppl laff at u because u are not good at it. same here. well dont give up. at least u tried. better to have tried than not to. at least when u try, and u fail, u feel content because u dint give it up wifout a fight.its better than not trying at all. some more, if u keep tried and u failed, but decided to peservere and try again, u may succeed. and that success then, is definitely better than succeeding on the first try.
wow.. the thot of the comparison of similarities between both of us.. it sort of overwhelemd me.
but penghui, wdv they say, ur not a loser. nobody wins all the time. u win some u lose some. thats life. u may lose some. but ur not a loser penghui. and being able to withstand their taunting, u are definitely strong.
and when u start thinking u are a loser. look at some one worse off in the game of life than u.
look at me penghui. look at me.
i am a loser.

2004-12-23T16:23:00.000+08:00

good charlotte rox..

ghost of you:

I will wait until the end
When the pendulum will swing back to the
Darker side of our hearts bleeding
I will save this empty space
Next to me like it's a grave
Where I lay a place for us to sleep eternally togetherI am there

Searching for
Traces of
What we were

[chorus]
The ghost of you
Is all that I have left
It's all that I have left of you
To hold
I wake in the night to find
There's no one there but me
And nothing left of what we were at all...

So here I am
Pacing around this house again
With pictures of us living
On these walls
I see my breath in the cold of the air that I breathe and I'm wondering
I'm wondering if it's you that I feel
If it's you that I feel here haunting me forever

[chorus]

And I'm not looking for
Anything but us
Anything but what we were
And I'm not asking for
Painted memories
I only want to know you're here

[chorus] x2

2004-12-23T10:56:00.000+08:00

whee..
i did... 1% of my stamp project.
fuck it.
i really dunno how to do..

i changed my blog song!
i just wanna live by good charlotte.
mebe i'll change it to predictable soon..

ok i think i better go do work

i rock a lawsuit
when i'm going to court
a white suit when i'm getting divorced
a black suit at the funeral home
in my birthday suit when i'm home alone
talking on the phone with the rollin stones
they say now your rich and
now ur famous
fake-ass girls just know what your name is

(; ciao

2004-12-23T07:44:00.000+08:00

hello
7.43 am
hmm
3 ppl online.
and one of them is in england.
not many early risers?
the last time i was online this early was..
when i watched holland versus sweden, and they extended to a penalty shoot out. so i had to stay up till abt 6.30am to watch. then i decided to play comp for an hour
but i cant do that now
i've got a stamp project to do
thats why i woke up so early
stupid hansvision
everyday dont work until today
when i have already planned to do it at will's place
so nvm lor i try to research la. then i can still go his place for his help. but mebe reduced time. so yah. i calculated. if i count my music time, practice, prep etc
i shud have at least 7 hours to research today. thats if i skip meals.

shit i forgot wat i wanted to say

oh yah.

hannibal
OMG
its a freaking nice book
so is silence of the lambs
so damn nice
so damn damn nice
its very very gross
i started on hannibal
and i found that mason verger, patient cum victim of genius/gentleman/gentleman-eater dr hannibal lecter
was still alive
and guess why he is alive
cos unlike his other victims, lecter used him for 'amusement' but not food
YUCK
he got him high on drugs
and persuaded him to take a shard of the broken mirror
and mutilate and skin his own face
and feed it to his DOGS
omg
YUCKYUK
but its scary the books
so its nice to read
but gross.
haha i m advertising..
its 7.51 am! i better go prepare, so that at around 8.20 i can start work.

2004-12-21T18:20:00.000+08:00

hello!!!
lol i m at my aunt's house again..
cos its so nice here.
whee. my niece is beside me now!
shes so cute! she's trying to tok on the phone wif nobody.
oh she went out.
anyway. my life has been boring.
i finished silence of the lambs its freaking nice! any one wanna borrow can come to me. looking forward to read hannibal. and i wanna get red dragon! see how will grham gets his face cut up..
oh and i wrote my first guitar tab! ryan cabrera - true! haha. i tried to play a tab on guitar and found that so much of the chords were wrong. i decided to make a chord tab of my own. its mainly correct.. i found 3 mistakes tho. i found out after submitting.. so yah. rige ppl! see if u can spot the 3 mistakes. one is error carried forward haha.
heres the link:
http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/c/cabrera_ryan/true_ver6_crd.htm

ok i think its time for me to go. nothing to blog. looking forward to friday. will be spending the whole day at Will's house doing the stupid stamp project. cos my comp no hans vision. yaya then i no homework liao

ok. byebye!

so i will not hide
its time to try
anything to be with you..
all my life i've waited..
this is true

2004-12-18T17:35:00.000+08:00

yo ppl.
just back frm music
i was on the train and i saw this guy.
he wasnt the best of looks, and neither did he look like a kind soul
but then i saw his companions
his wife and his baby child
if u just look at him u would probably think him as a miser, and unkind person.
but the way he sat there and played with his baby child
the way he smiled when the baby smiled
it was so sweet.
who knows?
he may be a bad father in the future
or he may be a loving one.
no one can see into that small family's future.
but at least for now. all they knew of was the bliss of them and their baby
and this is yet another example of not to judge a book by its cover

its christmas! its a time of giving! i decided that when i meet charity orgnisations next trip out of my door, i will donate! (: donate to charity
but does that mean i have to donate to yanzhi/
ok nvm. sorry yanzhi. no offense.
oh and i got the good charlotte album chronicles of life and death for myself! ((:
i decided to pamper myself a bit this christmas haha
its freaking nice go get it.
ok i go off to play diablo II liao
byebye

2004-12-18T17:29:00.001+08:00

2004-12-18T17:29:00.000+08:00

2004-12-17T13:18:00.000+08:00

hi all.
wow. i slept at 3.30 last night.
but at least i finished my fucking chinese essay. woohoo!
and my hansvision/other chinese software all dont work. so i cant do my stamp project. thinking of meeting up wif yinkwan.. like last time june holiday re liddat. do work., then play halo last level lol.
haiz nothign much to say also. but yay i only left stamp project!

2004-12-16T21:58:00.000+08:00

hello
back frm music
its been two weeks since i know my music result. but i dint say.
449/500 for yamaha exam. that means..
if i pass next june's exam (unlikely) i am certified to teach at yamaha
but then again i wont teach. unless its for quick bucks. cos i dont wanna be a music teacher. tho it would be cool.
i cant believe i got 100 for my dictee de la musique leh..
then my mum brought me to eat ajisen today. haha its damn frekaing nice. but damn ex also.
i dont have much to say liao leh.. ok lor blog tmr.
oh and i finally started on my chinese essay. yay.
byebye

2004-12-16T01:15:00.000+08:00

hi ppl who actually still read blogs at this time
i just bathe. can u believe it?
i finally finished packing my table!
other than my drawers.. sigh
yay so something was done today yay
shit tmr got music and i dint practice.
anwyay i also have nothign much to say.. except
JAPHETH ENG. ur supposed to help me download 'last christmas' by jimmy eat world!
nvm. do it in ur own time ok. but asap la i love that song. pls download for me can. thx
ciao

2004-12-15T21:20:00.000+08:00

haiz
my chances of playing comp today are like impossible la. its 0930 now and i fucking havent packed finish my stuff. all the stuff still on my bed..
nvm. i shall finish at least my chinese essay tmr. then after music i can slack like siao into the night
friday i try to arrange for smu for friday or saturday lor. or better. arrange wif yin kwan to do stamp project research. me and him same stamp.
or even better better. if he has done (which i doubt. no body i know has finished other than will), i borrow info frm him. then i do.
cos i dunno wtfuckign hell on earth is a qi1 qi4. which is some kind of ancient china equipment. my mum is damn pro in chinese one and she also dunno..
ok. i go and pack and slack liao. bye bye.

2004-12-15T18:23:00.000+08:00

hello.
i was gonna write somethign nice here as an entry yesterday. but i decided to save it for a better occasion. lol
anyway.
spring cleaning
wtf
screw it. i dunno how the hell i m gonna pack my stuff know. i got my table top done and i dont plan to do my drawers.
i m gonna play comp tonight i dont care.
but i will finish at least a piece of my chinese homework by this week. oh yes i will.
christmas is here! ((:
but i hardly know anybody's address. so i'll probably just go around on msn saying merry christmas.
fuck it i think i better go pack my stuff now. so that i can play comp. shit la.

2004-12-15T18:15:00.000+08:00

dear santa
i've been a really good boy this year
no actually i havent
i swear
i procrastinate
and i point middle fingers at teachers
i take photograph of yanzhi sleeping
i eat in class
me and the guitar ppl broke open the teacher's console to view madness
hacked into limewire to make it work for my comp. doing illegal stuff on illegal stuff
etc
but u must still give me my christmas present
even if u delay it to the second monday of february
i want something cute, sweet and pretty.

yours
hiok

2004-12-13T13:45:00.000+08:00

hello
i'm at my aunts house now.
its really nice. just ate my aunt's spagetti for lunch. it rox
but i was very full. dunno why..
my niece is over here too!
shes is sooooooo cute!!! she's only 1+
she runs around the house and tals baby tal! she is sooo cute!
hahahaha
well. i dun really have much to blog.
mebe i'll get back later.
if i can use the comp
ok see u all!

all i want for christmas is you..

2004-12-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

yo
back.
yay
but i gg off soon. eating dinner now..
anyway. thx to everyone who tagged! (:
i am going to stay at my aunts place but only for a day
tonight i go there got scv. hopefully can watch chelsea versus arsenal. i hope arsenal win. cos if arsenal lose, chelsea almost definitely won their whole season. shit la. for the first time in my life i m sayign this. thierry henry! PLS SCORE.

ok. i got nothign to say liao. i going to play diablo 2! anybody who plays that also, come online and tell me leh! i wanna play wif ppl haha.
bye

2004-12-12T20:28:00.000+08:00

hello ppl
ok i sound spastic
hi
yay i renovated the blog!!!
its my first time!!!
ok la wont claim all the credit
thx to timothy for the tips and the song! thx!
yay i packed the pile of shit beside my table
ooh i m hungry
my dad cooked damn nice prawns! ok i'm gonna eat soon. ask if any more packing, go bathe then makan!
ok. mebe blog later. nothign much happen today. other than me procrastinating and not doing my hol homework again. bleh
ok. um yah i will be back later. probably to blog
eh. and i dunno if i shud go my aunts place to stay or not. its very nice. and my aunt is like so nice to me! but then. no comp. or at least i think. sometimes have sometimes no.
oh yah. i know most of u ppl will not help me la.. but pls. help me spread the word that this blog is BACCKKK!!
so will i in an hour or two's time. (:

2004-12-12T15:38:00.000+08:00

ok. i decided. i'm gonna mess around wif my blog today. as in try to renovate it like siao. if i m not ban frm comp or something. the best way to not get banned frm comp is.. to tidy my room
oh fuck.
nvm. i shall tidy the pile of shit beside my table that contains all the stuff i used for st revision. and my half completed chinese file in which i got away wif. hahaha
i'm gonna gloat at all the ppl who actually filed their files!!! hahahaha its amazing i got away wif it. i was fed up wif doing work after cts so i refused to file it and handed it up. lol
ok. i going off to pack the pile of shit liao. when i m done i'll come back to mess my blog!
ciao

2004-12-11T23:17:00.000+08:00

yay yay yay
sorry i m hyper
i irritated stanley hahahahahaha
nvm
i'm hyper
erm
i try to like renovate this blog if i got time la
i monitoring socccer scores now
see how much i add for IKTS. yay
i m 3rd in the leader board
today smu was fun
damn funny la
then went plaza sing to eat wif timothy, jerome, edwin and japheth.
ppl i warn u. do NOT cover ur hot miso soup wif the bowl cover.
u cant open it. i couldnt until jerome went to ask the counter guy how to. u have the press the bowl rim before opening. LOL. dman fun la
oh yah.
then on the bus setow wanted to dial a number written on the back of a seat.
cos it offered free ***
LOL
i shant reveal the number lest its an innocent person's

wah lao i m damn freakign bored leh. ok i go off to try and make time for renovating this blog. mebe change the pic or colour. yea. i cant find 'last christmas' by jimmy eat world!!! I WANT THAT AS MY BLOG SONGGG!!!!

ok. going off liao.

i've waited all my life
to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try
anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

2004-12-10T22:54:00.000+08:00

hahahahahahahaha
HAHAHAHAHAHA
sorry sorry i really cant stop laffing
hahahahaa
i conclude. jimmy eat world is out to suan me. hahahahaha
go see their records and their songs.
in 1996. they had a song called 'claire'
in 1999. their album was titled 'clarity'
in 2001. they had a nice song that basically tells wat happened! last christmas:

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
The very next day you gave it away
This year to save me the tears
I'll give it to someone special.

LOLLLLLLL
no i dont wanna dig up my disgusting and childish past. but. its too fucked up to not notice that jimmy eat world is out to suan me. cmon la. that song tells EXACTLY WAT HAPPENED last christmas. WOOOOWW.

ok back to reality.

last christmas is a freaking nice song. but this year it wont work for me HAH. unless may 29 becomes christmas (yuneng i dont mean ur birthday. its somethign else. haha) anyway i hope my luck not so bad. but perhaps it is. (:

erm.

i'm blogging now. i gotta go off in 1 minute's time.
i'm really bored nowadays. tmr yay smu.
seetow
timothy
japheth
samuel
will
jerome
edwin
qian wei
carvin
yinkwan(polidis)
me
YAY

i cant get the last christmas song out of my head. SHIT

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
The very next day you gave it away
This year to save me the tears
I'll give it to someone special.

whee

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart
The very next day you gave it away
This year to save me the tears
I'll give it to someone special.

2004-12-09T14:27:00.000+08:00

hi all.
i feel better
yay
fuck
sorry
i like to swear.
shit
music today
and i still havent done the work
damn
ok i'll give myself to 4.45 the most. then i'll go do.
whee.
i m damn bored. i think i'm gonna try to delete all my game folders in my comp
then re install the nice ones. yay. spring cleaning!
then mebe i go play xbox. haha
yesterday went to jon lim's concert.
the ppl are freaking pro.
the first guy was a chubby little boy. btu his piano was super super pro. keeyao kept sayign his vute. lol
thenthere was shawn neo. who looked DAMN DAMN DAMN liek seetow. except i cant realyl picture seetow in a western suit. hahahahaha
he was damn damn like seetow. omg.even when i saw him up close. he looks like seetow still. same hairstyle, specs, eyes, mouth, bowing style. omg.
but his piano also damn pro.
haha jon lim's piece was also very nice.
then went to eat at burger king wif stanley and kee yao. the flavour shot is damn nice!!! go try
after that came home wif stan on mrt. hahahahahahahaha

ok la i go off liao. ciao.

i guess its just imagination..

2004-12-08T17:48:00.000+08:00

oh right.. 5 minutes b4 i have to go prep to go out for jon lim's concert. haha
oh shit wheres the tix
ok i just found it. yay
i'm freaking bored.
i finished ming ju wif will's help. thx will! haha
my comp still doesnt have microsoft office and windows media player. wtf..
i m really bored leh..
some one suggest somethign for me to do (other than the stupid stamp project)
tmr have music i havent do the work... oh shit i m in a hell lot of shit, yupp! :)
shit shit.
fuck fuck.
guess i dont feel very optimistic abt stuff. haha
anyway. i'll try. i have to. i have to follow the paradoxical commandments. search for it in google. its really wonderful. if everyone can follow the paradoxical commandments it'd be such a wonderful place on earth.
wait i see if i could open the file and put in the commandments here. ok wait ar..

people are illogical, unreasonable and self-centered
love them anyway
if you do good
people will accuse you of selfish ulterior motives
do good anyway
if you are successful you will win false friends and true enemies
succeed anyway
the good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow
do good anyway
honesty and frankness makes you vulnerable
be honest and frank anyway
the biggest men and women with the biggest ideas can be shot down
by the smallest men and women with the smallest minds
think big anyway
people favour underdogs but follow only top dogs
fight for a few underdogs anyway
what you spent years building may be destroyed over night
build anyway
people really need help, but may attack you if you do help them
help people anyway
give the world the best you have and you'll get kicked in the teeth
give the world the best you have anyway

there u go. its good know?

put down stuff..

hints or imagination? its a mystery that'd die with me, while a secret that'll die wif u

2004-12-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

hello. back from perth. i m using my cousins comp to blog. cos my comp cant. but i cleared it out liao. as in i reformatted. luckily theres this option to reformat wifout deleting ur documents. yay. so i still have all my stuff there. just that a lot of applications are missing. like microsoft office. wtf. anyway. i gonna try blogging tmr.

ok. wow. its been damn long since i last blogged. and my last blog entry wasnt even long. cos i barely managed to post it. yay

so much has happened since i temporarily stopepd blogging. i dunno how to say all the stuff. so i guess maybe i wont..

someone once told me. a blog is supposed to be personal. where the stuff u write is wat u want to write. its like a diary. but wat blogs nowadays have become.. its more like i write wt i want ppl to see.. no long er like a diary. perhaps i will get a password protected blog soon to vent my anger, confide my secrets, and tell me insecurities to. my doubts.

ok. heres a shout out. MY BLOG IS NOT NOT NOT NOT DEAD. COME AND TAGG!!

i'm bored. and pretty much fucked up.

whee..

u know i'm involved in a bit of confusion. i dunno wats really going on. and i dunno how the hell in the world to try and help it if my doubts are correct. cos i dunno wats gg on. if wat i think is going on, is really going on.

nvm

come to think abt it. i dont think i socialise enuf. from now on i'll try to talk to as many ppl as possible online! i gotta make my aquaintances into friends!

and when i socialise. perhaps i can put it down. as u said i m on 13.

hmm.. dont think i can blog longer. in case cousin comes. they are 30++ liao leh. can control me

hey miss. mind if i ask. are those hints or my over reacting imagination??

2004-12-01T22:55:00.000+08:00

hope fully this post gets thru. ok ppl. see. my adwares take effect about 2 seconds after my browser loads. which is why i cant blog. but i found out if i type my text b4 hand and copy paste fast enuf i can blog. ok hope this gets thru.. ok above are my class photo. but i edited wif photoshop to make is screwed up. take a look. i liek the last one most. it looks niiiice. haha well. there are so many stuff i wanna say but i dont think i can say it thru this post. i mean. its been.. a month since i last blogged i think. so much stuff happened. well. just take a look at the pic and give comments lor. byee

*ADDED ON 12 DECEMBER* hello. i moved this post to the december archives. cos the november archive page has some problems. its original date is november 08

tom and chin hwee

2004-10-20T20:07:00.001+08:00

today, in class, infront of our teacher and the whole class, tom admitted he likes chin hwee. go for her tom!!! ok nvm. anyway prefectorial elections coming up so vote for will, jerome, paul, bertrand, and michael! they shud get in. so vote them! they deserved it. not to mention paul was vice head and will and bert were heads in their pri sch. haha eating a chocolat bar now. its ok la. but i prefer plain chocolat. interclass on friday. hope 1L goes all the way. i'm putting and extra in sole into my shoes. dunno if that will help to kick more accurately. but either ways, i dont think i will be playing. its 7 a side. but gabby ng better be there! ;)

2004-10-18T13:42:00.000+08:00

2004-10-16T17:38:00.000+08:00

woohoo! new and nice blog pic for me! created it myself. tried to fit a head. but couldnt. its damn difficult. cos u must edit pixels. so i dunno how. so i hav a headless person here. but well its bigger now!

2004-10-14T13:06:00.000+08:00

yay i changed blog song. its somewhere only we know by keane. i wrote a story inspired by that song. those who want to read can ask me. slack slack slack. yay

2004-10-14T11:51:00.000+08:00

yays ad wares down now so i think i may be able to block. i was able to send that email askign for permision to go later for the debate training, even tho some ******** ************* *** ** * ***** who likes to ******* dogs and cats, refused to help me. and if ur the one reading this, be glad. notice none of the censors are the six letter word u hates so much. anyway, i managed to do it.

today is a slack day. gonna play comp like WTF??? and then play xbox maybe. but 5.00 onwards gotta get ready for musique. so yah. haiz mebe if readon comes online he can help me search for a new blog song. i like the tATu song all the things she said. its nice. ok mebe i blog later

2004-10-13T16:56:00.000+08:00

yay cts over. i gonna try to slack as much as possible. wah. serious la. last minute revision SUX. but i think it got me thru the CTs. today bio paper rite, the pancreatic duct and bile duct qn, i just read it this morning at 6.00 la! omg. haha anyway i just found out that my best revision style is a bit crazy. i will study till 11.00, sleep, then wake up at 4.00 am to study again till leave house. its good. maybe u all can try. haha going to bathe now will be back later.

2004-10-12T15:27:00.000+08:00

changed music. this song is very california. notice the prev. statement is a pun, racist, discriminating and descriptive. haha no offense to anyone tho. i juz make stupid comments like this one. but the song is niice.

2004-10-12T15:23:00.000+08:00

yay ad wares stopped for a while so i can blog. yay yay yay. today is the last day of studying.. and i am not doing so.. stupid me. haiz nothing much's been going on. but i m just bored. kayz going back to mugging!

2004-10-11T14:44:00.000+08:00

ok a quick one b4 i go off to mug..
i veh scared i fail maths... cos i never paid any attention in class. haiz. now i gotta mug damn hard. btw i have 10721 popups blocked in 3 weeks and 2 days! yay record. my comp is the best ad ware nest! yay. byee

2004-10-11T14:42:00.000+08:00

omg! i can blog! yay! ok i m online really illegally now. cos i m not suppose to be online for CT period. haiz anw the time i m online suc la nobody online one, or else no one reply when i tok. tangled up in me by skye sweetnam is blasting in my head now! wheeee yay! its damn nice. later i try to go online again cos i MIGHT be looking for maths sums to do. that is a big if. i may not feel like going online plus i m banned, rmr? haha haiz i just cant wait for CTs to be over, tho i know i will do badly for it. haiz...

~you wanna know more, more, more about me
i'm the girl who's kicking the coke machine
i'm the one that's honking at you cos i left late again

haha no for strangers, I is not a girl. je ne suis pas une fille. haha but the song is really nice. check it out. la fille est tres mignon! haha ya.. byee

2004-10-09T06:57:00.000+08:00

i m addicted to shakespeare in love! haha. but i will change the music soon after the CTs. today was ok but then i dint really read my cloze passage. i read the first two paras, and decided that i had no time so i anyhow do the rest. haha i gonna do badly la.. then english was ok but i think i over wrote. 4 pages wif no leacing of lines. history on monday would be worse. i think i may write up to 10 pages plus. i hope not. haha slackign online today. hopefully parents let me slack away just one day..

2004-10-07T11:18:00.000+08:00

i realised i dint fail my chinese test. cos i got 25/50. wtf... anyways today is a crappy day the only stuff are that i caused edwin to own goal. yah. otherwise theres a lot of mugging to do. nothing to blog leh. eh haha navjote thx for quoting me on ur blog. the stock market thingy haha. ppl who visit this site PLS tag me! ok i gtg now. byee

2004-10-06T13:41:00.001+08:00

i think i may be able to post. if this gets thru...extras extras! read all about it! yanzhi confesses to sleeping wif another manok. no offence. just repeating wat yanzhi said to me. on my tag board. he said he slept wif..ok nvmtoday is shit.first i mug like wtf siao for the damn chinese test, and then all i mug, never come out, all i dint mug, came out. i think i m gonna fail. and i m serious. i dont mean fail as in do badly, but seriously get lower than half of the total. hmphf. stupide test.then now got stupide ad ware. cannot even blog. that is if this doesnt get thru. anyway
congratulations!!! to will, our future prefect and head boy!!! he got thru to the final round liaoz! haha go boi! need help find me. and dont blame ur self.. just go for it, ok? if u really dun want then can quit one. but go for it first since u have the chance. and um cheer up tom. i mean. yea u dint get past, but well, u win some u lose some thats life. haha yea so cheer up stil lgot next year u sure get in one.. mean while i think i know wat u gotta do to raise ur chances... BE MORE DECISIVE! u know what i mean tom. go for it. and poor me dint even get thru the first. oh wells. one more year of more time to play soccer. haha to think i wanted to join for fun. not much commitment one unless i get in. LOL. haha tim also like me kicked out of first round. i gotta publicise: seen my nick? come wif me to the charity concert at victoria concert hall. 12/11. no one coming wif me.. and japheth. OI. u know i was just joking la of course u can come. others also invited the more the merriller oops i mean merrier. haha so come la. ask me or zhe min for details. ok got a geog practice paper to finish. gtg liao! hopefully can cram in one more blog entry tmr, and if really lucky, thursday. then i wont blog until end of CTs. byee!

2004-10-05T10:59:00.000+08:00

haiz CTs round the corner and yet SO MUCH WORK?!?!?! wtf.. nvm anyway today is quite screwed. assembly was ok. was irritating tim. LOL. fun la that guy. then suddenly something abt g-spots turned into an avid discussion on diablo 2. see fun rite? tim is a very very nice guy. then in p.e., i failed the damn swimming test. know why? cos the damn wind blew my board FAR FAR away from tan zhi hao. i mean. we were supposed to do this rescue test thing, and i passed everything, other than that. and it so happens mr kwan fails ppl who fail ONE thing. so yah i failed. cos when i threw the board to zhi hao i purposely throw damn leftward cos of wind. but the stupide wind go blow my board far far away from him. wind est stupide. le stupide wind. then english was boring. some stupid essay on animal farm. who cares about pigs trying to drink whisky? then came chinese which was ok cos we slack like siao. and then took the chance to make noise in the chinese teacher(who happens to be a girl in pink sleeveless top today, yanzhi)'s class. then was NE lunch talk. damn boring. i cant hear the speaker, and dunno wth his slide show is abt. then started making stupid sick jokes. then FINALLY the food came. tried to dip my fish into tim's fruit punch. then seetow went around throwing his napkins. lame. anyway then bio is ok i fell asleep a damn lot of times thru out the video. the video is really nice and so is the teacher, but i veh tired leh. ok tmr need to hand in maths mindmap and study for CHINESE test. luckily i done the 50 chen yu liao. haha. *gloats*. evil. yah so byee!!

2004-10-04T05:15:00.000+08:00

hi um if this gets to my blog i m really lucky. i accidentally deleted my damn ad aware 6.0. and now for some crap reason i cant reinstall it. says wat. npls log into the administrator's accnt to re install. i mean. wtf. theres now damn administrator. i m king on my comp. u obey or die. and they refuse. so now i m left wif ZILCH anti virus software on my comp. i dont have norton, nor mcafee etc. my comp is dead. and its the adware that causes ppl to be unable to blog, japheth. so yah u expert rite, clear ur adwares. then try blogging again. i have SO MUCH WORK NOT DONE AND I CAN CONCENTRATE!!! anyway ya i gg off to do hw liao bye. if this gets up on the blog, well, i m luck

2004-10-03T14:42:00.000+08:00

hi posting YET AGAIN. haha like my new blog pic??? i created it myself using paint!!! *beams* i got inspiration from a t-shirt. was at plaza singapura today for music mah. then saw this power wearing this t shirt. surprisingly i noticed the tshirt more. anyway. yah so the tshirt had this pic so i created it on paint myself!! YAY now officially theres absolutely nothing here thats like tim's skin. cos the colour's diff, the proportions are diff, the pic is diff, the lay out is slightly different, the signature when i end a post is one letter diff, the bottom and top of the window, the words there, are all diff! yay!!! but anyway its built on tim's template so yah. credit to him. haha getting REALLY lame. blogging so many times so far. i have so much work but i cant concentrate. ok ending to go concentrate liao! btw for those who dont get my blog pic, come ask me. tho i doubt got any. ;)

2004-10-03T13:30:00.000+08:00

hi omg i can post againz!!! yay was down with ad wares that stop me frm posting for a while.
i just realised today in my music lesson that i have to play 5 pieces for my diploma piano exam next year, and 1 of the pieces is 3 movts ones. that means 30 - 40 minutes, then got the otehr 2 which i have to play are abt 20 minutes each, then the last 2 add together abt 10 minutes. plus there is sight reading and analysis of my diploma pieces and the composer. i was looking at my teacher and like. wtf? analysis? then she was like yah.. its like u are saying out a pre-prepared essay written on the piece. then i was like WTF??? essay? she was like yah... pre-prepared one.. i mean. wtf. the exam's gonna be like 1 hr 45 mins or something? plus i have to prepare essays on the pieces? haiz but i dunno how true this is i never take diploma b4. mebe she exagerated too much.. but its gonna be scary..

DAVID R SCOTT IS BETTER THAN NEIL ARMSTRONG is my message to the neil armstrong history ppl. HAH. david scott rocks ok. neil armstrong DOWN. boo. he thinks [sick], he acts [seh] , tis done [for].

ok la no offence lor just that me, seetow, readon and shaun are pro-david r scott.

ok heres my current fave song and my blog song. parts of the lyrics are nice and got meaning one! nice. read and enjoy and listen.

Shakespeare In Love
by Layla Kaylif

He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A sinister romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see

Teachin' torches to burn bright
She's hanging on the cheek of night
A snowy dove trooping with crows
He never saw true beauty till tonight

CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love

He's fought and he's fallen
He's on his knees before he's on his feet
A glittery romantic
Oh, he's about to be and she's about to see

His bounty's boundless like the sea
His love is endless, just as deep
The more he gives the more he has
`Cause both of them are truly infinite

CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love
That's Shakespeare in love
A sinister romantic
He's on his knees before he's on his feet

CHORUS:
She'll take him to the brink of deliverance
Show him that much
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
So he falls in love to feel that he's falling
She'll let him know his heart
Oh, don't you know it
Oh, don't you know it
That's Shakespeare in love
That's Shakespeare in love

2004-10-03T03:21:00.001+08:00

i got blog music!!! its shakespeare in luuuuuurrrvveeeee!!!! its a nice song so crank ur ur speakers!!! hehe anyway. THX readon for helping me bet the music, while tim refused to help me, i shud credit him. thx timothy! dunno who is timothy? he has strong legs, is quite tall, has a dark complexion, and is every girls dream! visit his blog on my links site. readon's also. thx guys! and good luck to will who is trying to create a blog tooes!!! good luck!